Posted by: Kate
Have you ever felt so stressed out that you say to yourself “I can’t do this anymore?” You’re so stressed that you escape to the bathroom or lockeroom at work and just hideout for long periods of time? You get panicky and have to take deep breaths or call someone to help you calm down?
This was me a year ago. Honestly, I feel like this is many people around the world. A lot of us just try to deal with it or use up all of our time off to avoid the work hustle (I know I did). But what do you do when it gets so bad that the stress becomes depression? You start having negative thoughts?
For me, I had to quit my job. I found a position with another department to try to remedy the situation. My therapist at the time thought that and environment change would be benficial. For a month or two it did help me; but the stress and depression never really subsided. The change never ‘cured’ me but it also didn’t releave the triggers that were around. After a year of ‘toughing it out’ I ended quiting that work place too.
It was the best thing I ever did. I put myself first instead of putting my career first.
I read a blog post on the website The AWE Group about a person who went through a similar situation. This person ended up taking a hiatis from her career to focus on his or her mental health. He or She found it be extremely beneficial for both mental health and career, for a bit. Similar to what I was going through, all of the feelings start to return again.
My depression got to the point that I wished something bad would happen to me. I would hope that I got into a car accident, that I would break a leg, or get admitted into the hospital. I wanted anything to happen to me so that I didn’t have to go in to work and deal with what was going on.
So is it beneficial to take a leave? To quit altogether? I guess, it depends on the person. Starting over can a trigger for some. Staying put can also be a trigger. I think one just has to make sure to put themselves first. Make sure the self-care is a first priority; if you need a break then take it, if you need to leave then leave. All that matters is putting oneself first.